Oxnard is too small of a city for me.
I'm ready for big city thangs ..in Berkeley<3
BRING IT BABY♥

Kisses and me

***IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED MARLEY AND ME ..
AND YOU EVENTUALLY PLAN TO ..
DON'T READ THIS !!!
Marley and Me was such a terrible movie for long-term dog-lovers, like myself. It made me want to cuddle with my dog forever. Personally, I thought the movie was long and slightly tedious in the way that the plot was slow. Like life, it did not have the happiest ending. That must be the reason why I don't really like it. I mean, a part of me was waiting for movie-magic to recussitate the dog and bring it back to its hyper self. Nope, didn't happen, won't happen.





Gosh, depressing much? [ I wrote it with an extra cup of depressing because I'm listening to Nora Jones' "Come Away With Me" ]
So to update ya'll on my oh-so-interesting life ..
There are 11 MF days until graduation. Can someone tell me where the last 13 years of my life went? I know it felt like an eternity when I was up at 3:25A.M. in the morning struggling to finish a paper or 5:24 when I had to peel myself out of bed to show up to zero period ..showered. But right here, in this moment, it went by in the blink of an eye.
So Senior Awards Night was last Thursday. It was completely exhilarating. Completely. I felt like the night was dedicated to my accomplishments. And ..ahh, finally some recognition. Finally my mom can see how hard I've been trying to get her some money. I know she knew, but now she knows. Idk if that made sense to you, but it certainly made sense to me.
And he topic I'd like to discuss today ..
Salutatorian.
(I gave us cussing but..) shiiiet. How? Someone throughly explain how this happened to me. I thought I didn't have a chance in hell at making a speech at graduation after getting three B's. I was valedictorian in Junior High, and it was my life's goal to be either valedictorian or salutatorian in high school. Baaaayyuum! Mr.Dabbs dropped the bomb on me. I'm a finalist. It's between Hesed and me by .005 GPA points. OMG right?! Like seriously, what are the chances of that? Anyways, I'm busting my a-s-s to maintain my straight A's, while Hesed is trying to RAISE her grades. She has a D in physics and it's making me nervous that Mrs. Zehner is going to just give it to her. Idk ..if anything, I'd like us to both be salutatorian, yennoe?
Enough of that, it's making me extremely nervous. And I don't like going to sleep nervous.
It's 12:48 A.M. and I have work tomorrow.
I should go to sleep.
Good idea, Ashley.
Good night, sleep tight, World <3
P.S. I did all my homework already. Whoa, I think a miracle just happened.

Felt like it was just yesterday...

I haven't been on here in forever and now I'm in the writing mood. Today was extremely slow and I'll use Adrian's word --lethargic. Texting was the only thing that helped me pass time.

-I got yelled at by Mr. Riley
-Went to TF con Kevin
-Aced my work experience final
-Took the last part of my physics final
-"Chatted" in newspaper hahah ..command prompt
-Burned a CD :D (I'm so proud, haha)

It's a really odd feeling ..graduation. It's coming up faster and faster. The days in between are filling up with more and more things to do. And the funny thing is ..I can totally see the transformation. My To-Do List is becoming filled with the kinda stuff not associated with school. It's all Berkeley deadlines and scholarship applications. Homework and extracurricular activities are no longer at the top of my priority list. I imagine this is how it will be over the summer. Weird.

Ugh, I hate being all nostalgic.

I made a resolution to give up cussing. It's so not classy. Ahaha, to me it sounds so dirty and unintelligent. It's just another bad habit I'm tryna shake off. But I still like the word "daaaayuum" hahaha so that one's a keeper. Mhm, I decided.

Friends. Aw it's seriously hitting me hard. I'm going to miss the shit out of you guys. I have so much fun with you all, it's unbelievable. And we keep getting more and more fun! More and more people wna join, lol. This is the part I don't want to end.

Boys. I decided that for the rest of the week, I'm ovverr them. It's so confusing. Like I swear .. I'm just so much better off pushing them OUT OF MY HEAD. I just need to wait a couple more months and I'll be in Berkeley.



Whew. That's enough blogging for today.
Don't stop believin.
<3shley

Its been a long time!

I have a date to prom & I'm super excited :D
Today was eventful (im using adrian's word)
I went to CI at 8:00 in the morning & was a student interviewer..
I got a $25 gift card to barnes and noblessss and won an espresso kit thing, got free food, and a new perspective. New cool friends and a working brain!!

Then I went home, slept for like five minutes
THEN I had to go to work :/
now im talkin on the phoneeeeeee

gbyee

Recap

Best spring break ever <3
BERKELEY, HERE I COME!
go bearsssssss :)


"milk it milk it milk it
squeeze it squeeze it squeeze it
hella on a steep hella on a steep
omarikea omari!"

TTYL Oxnard* :)

So it's kinda late & I need to wake up early tmrw* BUT I'm going to blog because everyone else did. And since my computer takes 349345042 days to load, I'm going to "comment" on your blogs here :P

Mariana: Omg, you babysat them again? HOW COOL :D
Adrian: I LOVEE your inspiration board <3 except its missing a picture of your fwends, hehe JK
Kevin: MMm sinigang sounds real good ahorita
Hayle: I have fun with you & your lightweightness last saturday (:

Okay my turn --
LALALA uhm
Work was a big fat bitch. This "refresh" is faar from refreshing. It's hard labor at minimum wage. The only thing that kept me alive was Sean & Dan visitinggg! ..and candy! and Jack in the Box! Haha

Anyways, this is what I did today:
1.Woke up at 530 to take my dad to the train station1
1.5 Went back to sleep at 532, hahahhahaha.
2. Woke up again at 9
3. Took a shower
4. Went to the physics study session at 10:00
Ate PIZZA courtesy of science club & bombbb cookies courtesy of aaron
5. Went shopping for my trip* from 2:00-5:30
Bought:
- Shirts
- Sandals
- Sleeping Bag
- Mini Office Kit
- FOOOOD
6. Worked, as described above. I was super irked tho cuz customers were as bitchy as the wind. Idk maybe the wind is contagious or something.
7. Came home around 11
8. Played with all my new stuff
9. Started packing* (:
I don't know how to pack, haha :/
My room = tornado + tidal wave + earthquake + godzilla
10. Showered
11. Blog

* for those of you that don't know..
I'm going to Berkeleyleyley from April 16-18
WOOOOO WOO WOWOWOWOWOOOOOOOO
party up north! jk
im finally gna get a taste of life away from quaint little oxnard

Ssssiiigggghh
I'm pretty tired. I'm going to dream pretty things & wake up at 730 to actually have a spring break.



Luh yuh fwends!
<3$hley

The first time I'd be riding a train isn't for the right reason. I thought I'd be going to UCSB or Berkeley. Or with my friends going to LA. Or just taking a fun adventure out of town. Instead, the first time I'm riding a train is to go to San Diego to be there for my dad. My grandma is on life support.

I've been thinking,

maybe I should...
-go to prom solo
-buy walgreens photos
(ultimate value pack 9.99:
3 8x10
3 5x7
20 4x6
20 wallets)
-save lots of money

It kinda makes sense to me. I don't really have anyone else in mind ...that would go with me &I'd go with them. I'll be saving lots of my own money. Best of all, I know I'll have fun because no stueph date can really ruin it for me. I had so much fun dancing by myself on sadies. After all, you are your best date :D

Hm. Yay or nay?
It just sounds better and better the more I think abt it.

Update

-Kristine Yap is a really good friend that laughs at all my jokes even if I don't intend for them to be jokes.She introduced me to pho & took me to yoyumyum .. yummm :)
-I loveeee hanging out with the asians :D
Happy birthday josh! Grreaat food haha
-I visited UCSanta Barbara and kinda fell in love with it.
-My grandmas in the hospital. I dont really wna talk abt it, except I'm glad I only have two grandmas because two grandmas in the hospital = doublesadashley
-I havent done my homework and its really packing on!! Its already 11 shieeet
-Love this weatherrrrrr


Bye
<3shley

I cleaned my room extensively. It feels really really really good :) I got a lot of my To-Do List done too.

Ex:
DONE clean room
DONE make lili posters
DONE scholarships
not DONE homework

wow huhhh :D
I am terrible sick btw. I can't talk very well & I'm all drugged up on medicine. I sleep like every couple hours & don't wanna go to school tomorrow. Complaint. Complaint. Complaint. I'm annoying myself

Ahh
<3shley

killlin it fasho

The Currents,

you guys are amazing :) 
i can't tell you how proud i am 

1st ANNUAL TCJEA WRITE-OFF @ csuci
1st place school sweepstakes [based on points earned during the day]
2nd place school newspaper [ based on the newspaper we turned in for competition]

Ashley Villanueva- 2nd place page layout
Lili Cano- honorable mention page layout
Xander Beltran- 1st place sports writing
Sophia Puglisi- 1st place news writing
Karina Johnson- 2nd place news writing 
Miguel Reyes- 2nd place editorial cartoon
Luis Olmos- honorable mention editorial writing
Hesed Cabornida- 3rd place critical review
and i believe a lot more. 

^borrowed from hesed!
hah, represent :)

five for five

Dear Ashley,
Congratulations! I am delighted to welcome you to the College of Letters and Science at the University of California, Berkeley for the Fall of 2009.




<33
them positive vibes be workin!

Bad day, good attitude.

So Mando asked me to prom today with roses & a card. It was really sweet, but I already had a certain someone in mind --I told him just that. Turns out, the guy I really had in mind helped him out. Karma's a bitch. :( Physics was a bummer. I always feel so lost in that class :( I got an F on my last test. Guuuhreat! :( Calculus .. I had a mini verbal argument with a certain someone. Anywayssss :( Fourth period, a little someone visited me. Ugh. :( Lunch, I had 3 club meetings, of which I briefly went to & ditched. :( I couldnt hang out with Tamara, Monique, and Adrian during 6th. :( I stayed after school until 4:45 working on the paper ..stressin out to the max! I'm stressing just writing this!!

PERO I went out & I still had a good attitude :)
And I STILL do have a good attitude.
I must say, I'm very proud of myselffff


<3shley

you're never satisfied

I just got my offical UCSB acceptance letter in the mail.
Yup, the BIG package. I was sooo happy this time :)

...but guess what killed it?
MY DAD. Like alwayyssss. All he could say is:
"Where's your scholarship? How much money do you get?"

To top it all off, when I asked him if it was time to eat, he said:
"No Ashley, we're just going to stare at our food. I told you it was time to eat. Blah blah fucking blah"

:( I never do enough.
I'm glad I'm moving out.
Even if it IS only 45 minutes away.


<3shley

spring cleanin

So I had another blogspot, which I used as a very personal diary. I had it since like Januaryish. Then, I got reallly paranoid that someone would read all my super personal thoughts and feelings and memories, so I deleted it ALL. It kinda feels good because all of the frustration I had got deleted, but so did all my good memories. Oh well, this is my only blogspot now.

:/




Bahama Mamas this weekend :)
Drove home from LA at 6:00
Work at 8:30
Newspaper 1-4
I'm taking a break from hw atm, but I'm so tired I might just turn it all in late.



<3shley


PS. Berkeley notifications come out on Thursday. Eep.

PhotoJournal #1

INSPIRED BY NICK AND NORAH'S INFINITE PLAYLIST.


Tamaras house - 6th Period
Not pictured: FOOOD RUN!


the rest is self-explanatory - a sequence of what we did :)

LMAO

My horoscope says:
You're totally hot for one of your friends -- as far as you're concerned, you'd take him or her right here, right now. But you're not sure they feel the same way. Hint around. Let 'em know how great they are. The response might result in a cheap hotel and breakfast.

The day is pretty much over.
Damn, no cheap hotel. No breakfast.





LOL
<3shley

maybe, possibly, yes.

California Lutheran University - ACCEPTED
Thousand Oaks, California $14,000 / year ($56,000)
Marquette University - ACCEPTED
Milwaukee, Wisconsin $2,500 / semester ($20,000)
St. John's University - ACCEPTED
Jamaica, New York $9500 / year ($38,000)
University of California, Santa Barbara - ACCEPTED
Santa Barbara, California
University of California, Berkeley - ? Berkeley
University of the Pacific - ?

Shit, son! Ima do big thangs.
<3shley

my horoscopee

says for the week of March 16:

Your brainy energy is the perfect antidote to any bad mood your friends are having early this week -- share your quirky ideas with them and watch their faces light up!

It's also a good time to apply yourself to real-life problems. Your nostalgia takes a slightly darker turn through Friday, and you may want to focus on the present to avoid thinking too much about the past.

Life gets a lot sweeter this weekend, as nearly everyone in your social circle seems willing to get along well for the sake of the group as a whole.

I hope this is true. I'm wishin, hopin, prayin.

Oh, and it also says...
Be on the lookout for candy hearts and red roses on the 23rd. Sure, Valentine's Day was last month, but Cupid's arrow is as potent, apparently, as ever! It's always the right time for romance, as you'll be convinced on the totally romantic 28th and 29th. By the 30th, you're ready to pour your heart out to this very special someone and they are more than ready to listen!

A girl can wish, can't she?

<3shley

sadies 2009

taking it to the streets.
LITERALLY! lol :)



ahhhhh what a night.
it had its ups and downs but overall, i had a way fun time.
running on like 4 hours of sleep + a monster, i was PRETTY good.
platforms are my fav & i have my eye on someone for prom

im talking on the phne with tina
she says hi!

<3shley

So close, so fast.

I had a deep conversation with my friend, Adrian Salagubang today (who Mrs. Zehner thought was my boyfriend). We all go so close so fast and now we drifted far far apart :( Can someone please tell me how prom is going to turn out? I know, it's going to be like this:

"She doesn't like her so she can't go on the party bus!"
"Oh yeah, and whats-her-face is going to say NO so don't talk about the party bus around her!"

And I'm gonna be like :( sad face to the max!

Hopefully everyone takes their recommended dose of "chill pill" and we're all friends again. Why can't we all be friends..?



AHHH I'm so hyper right now!! I had a Jamba Juice plus an energy boost. Hm, okay I should be working on my project right now. I just wanted to get that off my chest. I'm at Arely's house. She says hello (:

<3shley

Lucky penny, JCPenney.

Two almost-perfect days in a row?! The answer is yes.
I saw lots of people ..that I don't normally get to see ;)
I hung out with my best friend and now twin, the beautiful Lisa Du!
I met like 3743895 new people haha
I went shopping, again!
Lisa bought me a burrito.
I had boba :D :D
A party is gna go down Sadies night :)
Best of all, butterflies x4



Only one thing sucky-minor happened to me today, but my buddy Ubaldo Martinez brightened up my dayyyyy <3 huhh! asian persuasion fashow!

Eff it, thug life.

Today was all about spontaneuity!

So I've been wanting to make one of these for a while
... and Hayle and Mariana encouraged me to finally make one!
Today was such a fun-filled day that I thought it would be blog-worthy. So here I am!

Even though it was DLST, I adjusted and actually got hyper afterschoolish. The day started off terrible. I was half-asleep and a bit annoyed cuz I have no idea how my english group is gna pull off this powerpoint. Physics wasn't so bad ..I understood it and! MY SENIORITIS DISAPPEARED! I'm actually being excessively productive. It's kinda freaking me out. Anyways, third period was also excellent ...considering we have no homework! :D Fourth period was supa chill. I don't remember lunch very much. Except that I asked Kevin to be my picture date. He said he doesn't know yet. And fifth period, Mr. Riley wasn't there ...which is always great! Sixth period I hung out with Tamara and waited for her to get her sadies ticket. After, we went to Science Club to count moneys! After school, we waited for Tina to buy her sadies ticket. I gave Nick his guest pass. I also caught up with Sophia!

Then my day got a milllllion times better! Hayle swooped me up! We went to Amuse, where we saw Tina and Tamtam. We split apart and the two of us went to Fashion Gal and Tshirt Warehouse, where we met Mariana :D I bought boots!! We didn't find anything at Tshirt Warehouse, so we went to Hayles house and carpooled ova to the thrift store! I bought a belt (: Mariana had to be home, so we dropped Hayle off and Mariana and I just talked for a while.

My sister and I went to boba and I treated my entire fam out to large bobas! When I got home, there was lots of food to eat which = happyashley!

That's all. I think?


OH! I found 100 ways to be happy on google.com
I added to some of them, deleted others, and left some blank
...because I know I'll think of something better later on.








1. Don't put yourself last all the time.

2. Learn to say I love you more often ...and mean it. It feels so damn good.

3. Be honest and don't talk shit.

4. When you extend a helping hand to one person, be careful not to kick someone else in the ass.

5. Replace the fear of the unknown with curiosity.

6. Let your heart defy your logic.

7. Let go of the parts of your life that you seriously don't want. Insecurities, people, habits, etc.

8. Remember, the voice telling you that you cannot do something is always lying.

9. At least once a day sit and do nothing.

10. Inhale love, exhale hate.

11. Celebrate all your birthdays no matter how old you get.

12. Examine your life for limitations and ask yourself why you put them there. Better yet, no limits.

13. Easier said than done, but STOP BEING MEAN. Don't talk shit unless you'd say it to that person's face ...on public television. Lol.

14. Diminish your wants instead of increasing your needs.

15. Cry when you feel like it.

16. Rejoice in other people's triumphs. Don't be jealous.

17. Don't wait for someone else to laugh or express joy.

18. Forgive yourself for any mistake you make, no matter how big or small.

19. Keep good company. Surround yourself with happy people.

20. Never take a pill for a pain you need to feel.

21. Use your enthusiasm to put yourself in forward gear and give yourself a spark to move ahead.

22. Look in the eyes of the ones you love when you are talking to them.

23. Remember that one is a whole number.

24. WALK IN THE SUMMER RAIN WITHOUT AN UMBRELLA.

25. Do a kind deed for someone else. On the daily if possible. Pay it forward.

26. Keep your eyes and ears open to get the messages you need from people and events in your daily life.

27. Be patient.

28.
29. Change what you can and leave the rest alone.

30. Walk hand and hand with truth.

31. Make laughter and joy a greater part of your life than anger and grief.

32. Embrace solitude instead of running from it.

33. Be zealous, not jealous.

34. Forgive anyone you've been holding a grudge against.

35. Slow down and enjoy the present.

36. Walk in others' shoes before judging them.

37. Send yourself a kind message.

38. Remind yourself that the company you keep is a reflection of what you think of yourself.

39. Go on a picnic.

40. Accept your fears, no matter how crazy they seem.

41. Don't let other people's opinions shape who you are.

42.

43. Never attribute your accomplishments to luck or chance.

44. Know when to say no.

45. Look at the positive side of negative situation.

46. R e m e m b e r.

47. Avoid seeking out other people for constant approval, because it make them the master and you the slave.

48. Go fly a kite and don't get hit in the forehead so you look like Harry Potter.

49. Avoid fads and bandwagons.

50. Accept the things you cannot change.

51. Look inside instead of outside yourself for answers to life's problems.

52. Remember that all feelings are okay.

53. Shield yourself from bad influences.

54. Stand up for what you believe in.

55. Respect the wishes of others when they say no.

56. Seize every moment and live it fully. Carpe Diem

57. Give away or sell anything you haven't used in the past five years. Someone else needs it more than you do fashow.

58. Never downgrade yourself.

59. Take responsibility for what you think, feel, and do.

60. Pamper yourself.

61.

62.

63. Volunteer to help someone in need.

64. Refrain from overindulging in food, drink, and work.

65. Finish unfinished business.

66. Be spontaneous.

67. Find a constructive outlet for your anger.

68. Think about abundance instead of lack, because whatever you think about expands.

69. Think of yourself as a survivor, not a victim.

70. Cuddle an animal.

71. Be open to life.

72. See success as something you already have, not something you must attain.

73. Experience the splendor and awe of a sunset.

74. When you score a base hit, don't wish it were a home run.

75. Learn to be in the present moment.

76.

77.

78. Change your attitude and your whole life will change.

79. Never turn your power over to another person.

80. When your heart is at odds with your head, follow your heart.

81.

82. Live your life according to what is right for you.

83. Acknowledge your imperfections. Love them.

84. Plant a tree and watch it grow.

85. See "friend" instead of "enemy" on the face of strangers.

86. Watch an army of ants build their houses and cities and carry food ten times their weight.

87. Believe in something bigger than yourself.

88.

89. Make haste slowly.

90. Work through your problems step by step and one day at a time.

91. Accept compliments from others so you can see the truth about yourself.

92. Sit on the lawn without worrying about grass stains.

93. Don't condemn yourself for your imperfections.

94. Do a humility check periodically by loving the truth about yourself.

95. Tell someone you appreciate them.

96. Never live your life according to what is right for someone else.

97. Talk less and listen more.

98. Admit your wrongdoing and forgive yourself for it.

99.

100. Be happy.