Oxnard is too small of a city for me.
I'm ready for big city thangs ..in Berkeley<3
BRING IT BABY♥

Kisses and me

***IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED MARLEY AND ME ..
AND YOU EVENTUALLY PLAN TO ..
DON'T READ THIS !!!
Marley and Me was such a terrible movie for long-term dog-lovers, like myself. It made me want to cuddle with my dog forever. Personally, I thought the movie was long and slightly tedious in the way that the plot was slow. Like life, it did not have the happiest ending. That must be the reason why I don't really like it. I mean, a part of me was waiting for movie-magic to recussitate the dog and bring it back to its hyper self. Nope, didn't happen, won't happen.





Gosh, depressing much? [ I wrote it with an extra cup of depressing because I'm listening to Nora Jones' "Come Away With Me" ]
So to update ya'll on my oh-so-interesting life ..
There are 11 MF days until graduation. Can someone tell me where the last 13 years of my life went? I know it felt like an eternity when I was up at 3:25A.M. in the morning struggling to finish a paper or 5:24 when I had to peel myself out of bed to show up to zero period ..showered. But right here, in this moment, it went by in the blink of an eye.
So Senior Awards Night was last Thursday. It was completely exhilarating. Completely. I felt like the night was dedicated to my accomplishments. And ..ahh, finally some recognition. Finally my mom can see how hard I've been trying to get her some money. I know she knew, but now she knows. Idk if that made sense to you, but it certainly made sense to me.
And he topic I'd like to discuss today ..
Salutatorian.
(I gave us cussing but..) shiiiet. How? Someone throughly explain how this happened to me. I thought I didn't have a chance in hell at making a speech at graduation after getting three B's. I was valedictorian in Junior High, and it was my life's goal to be either valedictorian or salutatorian in high school. Baaaayyuum! Mr.Dabbs dropped the bomb on me. I'm a finalist. It's between Hesed and me by .005 GPA points. OMG right?! Like seriously, what are the chances of that? Anyways, I'm busting my a-s-s to maintain my straight A's, while Hesed is trying to RAISE her grades. She has a D in physics and it's making me nervous that Mrs. Zehner is going to just give it to her. Idk ..if anything, I'd like us to both be salutatorian, yennoe?
Enough of that, it's making me extremely nervous. And I don't like going to sleep nervous.
It's 12:48 A.M. and I have work tomorrow.
I should go to sleep.
Good idea, Ashley.
Good night, sleep tight, World <3
P.S. I did all my homework already. Whoa, I think a miracle just happened.

Felt like it was just yesterday...

I haven't been on here in forever and now I'm in the writing mood. Today was extremely slow and I'll use Adrian's word --lethargic. Texting was the only thing that helped me pass time.

-I got yelled at by Mr. Riley
-Went to TF con Kevin
-Aced my work experience final
-Took the last part of my physics final
-"Chatted" in newspaper hahah ..command prompt
-Burned a CD :D (I'm so proud, haha)

It's a really odd feeling ..graduation. It's coming up faster and faster. The days in between are filling up with more and more things to do. And the funny thing is ..I can totally see the transformation. My To-Do List is becoming filled with the kinda stuff not associated with school. It's all Berkeley deadlines and scholarship applications. Homework and extracurricular activities are no longer at the top of my priority list. I imagine this is how it will be over the summer. Weird.

Ugh, I hate being all nostalgic.

I made a resolution to give up cussing. It's so not classy. Ahaha, to me it sounds so dirty and unintelligent. It's just another bad habit I'm tryna shake off. But I still like the word "daaaayuum" hahaha so that one's a keeper. Mhm, I decided.

Friends. Aw it's seriously hitting me hard. I'm going to miss the shit out of you guys. I have so much fun with you all, it's unbelievable. And we keep getting more and more fun! More and more people wna join, lol. This is the part I don't want to end.

Boys. I decided that for the rest of the week, I'm ovverr them. It's so confusing. Like I swear .. I'm just so much better off pushing them OUT OF MY HEAD. I just need to wait a couple more months and I'll be in Berkeley.



Whew. That's enough blogging for today.
Don't stop believin.
<3shley